Get an alcoholic beverage of your choice before you read this. I garuntee you may just want one by the end of it. I know I do.

Anyways- many of you know now that Kylie and I (my SL mom) have broken up and there has been uberous amounts of drama attached to it. This post is just a clarification for EVERYONE- including her side of the family that doesn’t know truth when it slaps them in the face.

Let’s go back in time a little to where this all began.

Mom actually went on Kylie, IMs me, and goes “Hey sweetie, come meet your new dad” (or something to that extent). I roll my eyes, click the tp, and go meet her new flavor of the week. He seemed nice, me being me was skeptical since every person mom brings home ends up being psycho. We chat, I go meet some people in his family, then bounce off to Warcrack with Matt. Apparently Sypher has known mom for over a year and they love each other and blah blah blah. I’m thinking “at least they’ve known each other so long and not someone she met earlier in the week”. He’s all about his family which I appreciate.

So we start hanging out more, I go on Annie for once and yada yada yada. Everything seems to be going GREAT for once. No drama, Sypher is an amazing dad, everyone his happy. Freaking fantastic if you ask me! I was sooo happy with the family for once! They even adopted the most amazing little sister I’v ever had, Hailey- who I love to absolute pieces.

Too bad it didn’t last long.

Soon enough mom was being her. She started going on Maddi more and not wanting to come on Kylie as much. She wants to hang out on Maddi, she started barely talking to Sypher. Seemed she was in a funk so we all just let it go. Then she went on Kylie and seemed to be doing much better again and we were all happy she was back.

As you know, I build. I love to build. It keeps me stress free. And amazingly enough, dad builds too. He loves it, used to be obsessed. We start hanging out more because I got these new sculpties and went on a building frenzy. He gave me tips and told me what he thought, etc etc. He even helped me program a sex script into a bed. That was probably the funniest night I’ve ever had. WHY oh WHY did I ask my dad to help me do this? Because he’s my dad- any other dude I would ask to help me would have made it sexual (or tried to) and I could trust that dad would not do that. And I was right, we had a fab time laughing hysterically about being ragdolls dragged around.

One night last week I started to build Danni’s new bedroom furniture. Dad comes up to the building platform he made for me on his land and we chit chatted and then he decided that he wanted to build a house for the rental lot he bought to, uh, rent out. So he goes on google images and pulls up some pictures. He picks one and he goes “Oh wait, dunno how big to build it” so tps down to rental lot to get the sizing, and decides the skybox isn’t big enough and he was going to build down there. I decided I’d rather build around someone else than alone so I go down to the rental lot too, make a little platform above it, and start getting all this shit done.

Hailey and Kylie decide to join us and we were happy to have the other company here. That’s just about when shit hit the fan. Kylie tpd her kid avie’s twin sister’s adult avie. Confusing I know- let’s just say it’s her sister in adult form. I’m like yay family reunion. Then she drops down and rezzes. I zoom in and am automatically disgusted. She’s wearing something that if she wore in RL would be considered indecent exposure. Top was itty bitty but that’s not what bothered me, her shorts are what pissed me off. They were small enough to be considered “boy short” undies- except they were unbuttoned and exposed all her avies pubic hair. Srsly? You have got to be kidding me! I don’t want to see that shit! I was so disgusted I nearly asked her to change because I didn’t want Hailey seeing that- and if Danni was there I def would have asked her. I swear I don’t understand WHY people in SL dress like that- I mean even the prostitutes at the corner don’t dress to expose that much. Hasn’t anyone heard of dressing more and leaving something to the imagination? Sorry but that’ s much more sexy than showing off that you need a serious wax down there.

Anyways, so I get my cam off her and go back to building. Then she starts talking- just as annoying as she looks like she would be. Kylie tries to start a voice conference with all of us- and I am in far too much of a bad mood to go into a conference with people I know I’ll start screaming at. Dad does go in, and then got back out because he couldn’t even hear himself think! He was trying to build a house and was not there to socialize. Apparently noone realized he left because then they started screaming at him in open chat to pay attention to Kylie- and I then said he wasn’t in voice chat- and she was like “oh” and then tries to trap him. YAY channel listeners! OMG I nearly exploded when she tried to trap him- I amazingly kept my cool, gritted my teeth, and didn’t say shit. You all know my temper and that is a feat I managed to not whip out my weapns and crash her ass. Sethe (Kylie’s dad) was also in the voice chat and gave Sy a hard time too. All I’m thinking is “he was here first, he was working when you got here- he shouldn’t have to drop everything to make you people happy.” Even Hailey was starting to get seriously pissed off and uncomfortable.

After that night everything went downhill fast. A day or two later dad and I went house shopping since he didn’t end up liking the one he built. We found one, went home, and rezzed it. I then went AFK because I srsly had to get RL work done. Mom tps in on her kid avie, I didn’t notice because I’m trying to get shit done, and the next time I look up Sofie is there and dad and Hailey (who apparently also showed up) flew away. FUCK! I get up and go away because I don’t want to start drama and I know if I spend any time around Sofie I will explode. I get up and fly off. It’s not that none of us didn’t want to spend time with Maddi- we just did not want to be within 100m of Sofie. We’d much rather get up and walk away than freak out- sorry- we hate drama.

That’s about when things BLEW THE FUCK UP. Dad gets this IM from Sofie:

Sofie Burns: Well me adn maddi are talking and we both get the feeling like maybe you and Alex are doing things behind her back…because she is always with you, and Maddi is crying because she thinks you dont want to be with her anymore so she tped home

EXCUSE ME!? WHAT THE HELL!? Where did this come from!!!??? Yes, dad and I spend lots of time together, why? Because we’re always online and we don’t like clubbing or that shit so we sit around somewhere on the lot and talk, or build, or spend time with Hailey! Last time I checked this wasn’t a crime!!

Let me make this clear right fking now: SYPHER AND I HAVE NEVER HAD SEX!!! Anyone who knows me knows that I  love that woman too goddamn much to ever even think of doing that to her- same for Sypher. Not only that but anyone who knows Sypher knows that HE DOES NOT HAVE PIXEL SEX!

I obviously immediatly IMd Maddi and said something along the lines of grow the fuck up how could you ever ever think I would do that to you?! Dad also called her and they got in a fight (obviously) and she ended up hanging up and logging off on him, then Sofie continued to IM dad and tell him how horrible of a man he is to Kylie etc etc etc. SINCE WHEN WAS THIS ANY OF HER BUSINESS?! She doesn’t know shit- and if she did she would know that he LOVED Kylie with all his fking heart and just wanted to spend time with KYLIE not MADDI- and even when they did Kylie is afk half the time!

So she runs away. Appolgizes to me once, and denies she ever said anything like that. I have a feeling she did and she just doesn’t want to admit it so we don’t go apeshit on her. Too late. She shouldn’t even be surrounding herself with people that cause drama like that!

Things get heated over the next few days. Sypher and I are spending more time together because we’re just both hurt, angry, and feel betrayed. Hailey is also stuck at our hip and we just try and pretend nothing happened. Mom barely comes on Kylie- mostly on Maddi- totally avoiding Sy and I. Whatever, she can do whatever she wants. Sy decides that the more time she spends on Maddi the more he’s going to ignore her- he’s not partnered to Maddi, he is not dating a 5 or 6 year old or whatever- he’s partnered to KYLIE and that is who he wants to talk to.

Hailey is so upset that she would hurt us too and admits that she never felt Kylie was really her mom due to the fact she’s never on. She tells me that I feel like more of a mom to her than Ky since we are always together. Every time she’s needed me I have always talked to her, and visa versa. We’re inseperable and I love that girl to death and totally understands. I tell her that I am still her sister and I will be there for her whatever she decides to do.

Shit ends up hitting the fan to the 10th degree and I just decide I don’t want to be Kylie’s daughter anymore. It’s not because I don’t love her more than life- it’s because I can’t take the drama anymore. She is constantly surrounding herself with people that LOVE to start drama- and I am done trying to pick up the pieces. I have enough stress in RL that I don’t need to deal with people causing more drama.

Hailey also left Kylie on her own. She didn’t want to put up with this crap anymore. All three of us just wanted to spend time with KYLIE more- we don’t care if she plays Maddi- but she should make sure she plays both characters equally because it made all of us feel like shit that Maddi’s life is way more important than any of us. I mean- srsly? Kylie and Maddi have the same family so that’s not an excuse. Maddi doesn’t own any businesses or anything. The only difference is that Maddi has friends that don’t know about Kylie- but are they seriously more important than her kids and partner? Apparently so.

She unpartnered Sypher and we all just moved on. We changed our profiles around. Sypher and I are raising Hailey together because that’s what Hailey wants- that doesn’t mean we’re in a re’ship or anything. Sypher and I are extremely close- and only getting closer due to the drama. So we thought this was just over and done with.

WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG!

Yesterday I get this IM from Sofie (surprise surprise):

Sofie: I 0nly have one thing to say and I don’t give a shit if you want to listen or not, you disgust me seriously. Sleeping around with your father, that is just so freaking nasty. And the only reason why I told Maddi you were doing things behind your back with Sypher is to come to find out I was true, I am not dumber than I look hunny. So I only have one thing to say DON’T EVER talk to maddi again or anything becuase there is a lot of ppl that hate you and your whole fucked up family, stay away you have been warned, and thanks to you Maddi is really hurt so go be a slut and sleep with your dad PEACE OUT your muted biotch! 

You have got to be kidding me!!! They are still on about Sy and I having sex. WHERE oh WHERE is the correlation between hanging out and having sex? Srsly. We all just picked up and moved on! Just because Kylie is not part of our family anymore does NOT mean that we all have to break up! Not only that but how long was he my dad? A few weeks? Noone in RL would call their mom’s boyfriend dad after a couple weeks. Only did it due to roleplay and because he was a good guy. He was nowhere close to my original ‘other parent’ so really is it that gross even if I did anything? Not really. Nastier shit happens.

So I got on Annie and IMd her back- ya know, she is the reason all this happened in the first place and I let her know that. Maddi wouldn’t be hurting if she knew how to keep her mouth shut.

So then I go to work and just try to shake it off. Sypher finally comes home from the hospital (his mom was admitted) and we do some shit in game and then switch to WoW to cool off. Get out of it and I find this waiting for me:

Kylah: you know its pretty fucking low of you to be all about Kylie being your momma and now u got her kids in your profile as yours and her man…..u mise well have walked up and slapped her in the face. and then to put nice shit about her in your profile what the fuck are you trien to do kiss her ass after you fucked her up the ass with no KY your a perfect reason why people in this game get banned

You have got to be kidding me!! HAILEY LEFT KYLIE ON HER OWN TERMS AND WANTED ME TO BE HER MOM! I did not steal Hailey, this is what Hailey wanted- she wanted a mommy and a daddy no matter what kind of relationship they had. She loves Sypher and I so much that even if we aren’t in a relationship she wants us to be her parents- and I love that girl too much to deny her of it. So YES- she is my daughter now- NO Sypher and I are not together- and NO I did not steal her. This is what HAILEY wanted.

So I IMd her and told her this and muted her. I had that stuff in my profile about Kylie since she cut me from her friends list.

Then I IMd Maddi and told her to get her friends out of my IM box and it was really low and immature of her to do this. What does she say? Well I hurt her. Apparently that deserves this.

Not too long later I get this from Maddi’s mom:

Stich: First off we are her family, FAMILY sticks together and sticks up for eachother…If u cared about family and not the pixel penise u would maybe know that! You had the nerve to call Sofie names like whore/slut who the hell do u think you are…You are the whore/slut u skanky little thing…You make us sick, You ARE muted from this famil and if you contact ANYONE of us for ANY reason you will be reported for harrasment…You need to grow up and get a life of your OWN, not take the rols of someone who gave a shit about you…So leave sofie and Maddisons name out of your mouth/profile u dirty low life shit head, I can not believe your bullshit…LEAVE HER ALONE- ANY OTHER AVI U MAY HAVE THAT CONTACT SOFIE OR MADDISON WILL BE REPORTED AS WELL….LEAVE THEM ALONE, AND THE REST OF OUR FAMILY….

I didn’t even reply to this one. Just to let you know though, YOUR GODDAMN DRAMA-TASTIC FAMILY IMD ME TO HARRASS ME FIRST! I only DEFENDED MYSELF. I have done NOTHING wrong and maybe you should get both sides of the story before you go and say that shit!

So, what did I do? Muted, ARd, and banned.

LET ME FUCKING TELL YOU ABOUT LOYALTY! I have known Kylie longer than you have known she has even existed. Let me list the shit I’ve been through with her that you probably don’t even know about:

WHO oh WHO was there for her whole heartedly after her double lung transplant after only being adopted by her for a couple weeks? Oh yes, Me.

Who was there for her when her partner at the time was cheating on her and making her feel like shit? Me. I didn’t run away I stayed by that woman’s side.

Who was the one that cried every single night after we all thought she DIED in Sept/Oct? Who was the one that ended up having to take care of Kylie’s other daughter because she was becoming anorexic from being so upset about it? Who was the one that stood strong against the douche bags that spat on her goddamn grave? And who oh who was the one that was still there for Kylie and never wanted to leave her after she found out she wasn’t actually dead? ME OH ME!

Who was the one that defended her throughout the whole “her coming back” shit? The one that tried to tell people that the charity started in her name wasn’t a scam? The one that dealt with the drama IMs about it and still stood by her side? OH YAH! ME!

Who was the one that stuck by her and tried to tell her to get out of the NN because Colleen was basically shitting on her and couldn’t care less? The one that stuck by her side even though she still talked to Colleen even though Colleen said the nastiest shit to me? The one Kylie ran to for all the help when Colleen and Cee started drama? ME!

Who was the one that was sitting there by Kylie’s side after she wrapped her tahoe around a tree and became paralyzed from the waist down? I KNOW I KNOW! ME!

Who was the one that cried herself to sleep after they found out she had a tumor on her brainstem and she needed to have a removal process that could KILL her? ME ME ME!

Who was the one that started putting a memory book for her- even IMing people I never ever want to talk to just so mom would have these memories after she woke up from a coma with NO memory NO recollection of any of us? The one who forced a smile to try and be happy and not show she was upset? ME!

Who was the one that begged her to not leave SL everytime she said she was going to quit? ME!

Who is the one that went out to Wisconsin TWICE to try and meet up with her in RL? You guessed it- ME

And who the hell is sick of her surrounding herself with drama-tastic people that start shit and rumors over nothing? OH YAH ME!

I did NOT leave mom because I don’t love her, I love that woman more than I love nearly anyone on this goddamn planet, that woman is my life and has been my hero and inspiration over the past year. I left her because I am TIRED of people like YOUR FAMILY that start shit from nothing.  That put their noses where they don’t belong and don’t know the truth if it smacked them in the face. The people that start drama over nothing and really don’t give a shit if it kills them or not.

In summary:

1. SYPHER AND I DID NOT HAVE SEX!
2. Hailey left mom on her own accord!
3. Sypher and I are not in a relationship now! 

YOU PEOPLE- YOU ARE THE REASON THAT MOM IS UPSET RIGHT NOW- NOT ME!

To be exact- it is SOFIE’S fault that she is depressed- because if Sofie didn’t start shit everything would be FINE. We would have worked out the issues we had with her if noone said anything. I’m sorry- but I ***HATE*** drama with an undieing passion, and I am DONE allowing myself to be dragged into it.

So- DO NOT BLAME ME! DO NOT BLAME SYPHER! IF YOU PEOPLE DIDN’T START DRAMA NONE OF THIS WOULD HAVE HAPPENED! GROW THE FUCK UP AND GO TO HELL!

If *anyone* I mean ANYONE IMs me again about this- I will not respond- you will be immediatly muted, AR’d and banned.

I was hoping that we would have worked things out- but with all the hate IMs now I know that it’s over. I now know that I have wasted over a year and a half of my time on someone who, in the end, could give a shitless about me.

KTHXBAI!

Me on Gooney Island… an OpenSpace sim

So, I may have been gone for 5 months but I still had my connections to SL. Plurk mostly, and keeping in touch with the few friends I had RL contact info for. So much to my surprise (ok not really on some points) did I find out that LL  was screwing residents over… again. How this time? Sim prices going up of course! Not just any sims though- OpenSpace ones. Why were prices going up? Because a few people were abusing what they were “meant to be used for”.

Wait wut?

Yes. Once again Lindens are screwing residents over due to a few abusers. This isn’t really new news, just sucky news. I’m still wondering why LL never put up strict guidelines and payed attention to how many prims/scripts were going on on the OpenSpace sims in the first place so they could take care of the problem right away. I guess they’re just lazy.

So LL put up the blog post about price increase and people started freaking out. Not TOO surprising really.

People bitched, moaned, complained, and whined their asses off and LL supposedly read everything and came out with a new deal, and people rejoiced! Then said wait huh?

New deal is actually way crappier than the first one. People who want to use the sim as the original purpose have same price, but a drop in prims. Those who want to use it as renting/business etc have to pay more with less service.

Wow. All that whining was a real good idea. Now residents get just as screwed but it sounds better than everyone getting a price increase.

Let’s just say when this happened I went *EPIC FACEPALM*

*sighs* For those who have been in SL for longer than a year should seriously know by now that Lindens really don’t care too much about the residents. They are a company looking to be profitable. SL is not a government (well it is, a dictatorship theoretically), and it is not a place where we live 100%. LL decides the rules and that’s it. We all signed a ToS to play- and in that ToS I believe is a mentioning on how LL can change the prices of anything, at any time, and that’s that.

Yes, it sucks for sim owners that were using the sims as they were intended. And I really do honestly feel bad for those that are getting screwed. But can we theoretically do anything about it? Not really. LL runs the show. If we all riot against them and throw them out guess what happens? No more SL for us! So bitching about things they do is seriously a waste of energy. It very rarely is worth it against them.

Do you realize why this is? Because their rate of people signing up is so high. If you leave- 10 more people will sign up to replace you and I’m sure at least one of those 10 will end up being majorly addicted and spend loads of Ls and what not. We are all replaceable in this ‘game’. Many people (including myself) would refute that it is a game, but when you strip away all the re’ships etc it is actually an online game, LL is a company, and they are here to make money. It sucks but it’s the truth.

The people I really do feel bad for is those that bought the sims for their homes and just their homes. Nothing more than that. Now they have  to pack up and move out and go rent from someone else yet again. That is, if they can’t afford the new deal.

People also keep complaining about all the “pretty sims” that will be lost with this price increase. Srsly people? It’s SL. Wait 5 mintues- a new one will pop up and you will fall in love with that one too until yet another pops up in a  week or two. Pretty sims come and go often, because usually they can’t get the funding to pay for said sim, so even without a price increase most of them would probably end up poofing ANYWAYS.

It will be sad to see them go, but things come and go so often in SL that it’s just a part of everyday life here. We’ll all move on and go about our lives as if nothing happened.

Call me a bitch for really not being all that sympathetic, but ya know it’s really not worth it to get my panties in a bunch because LL is being their assholeish selves. I signed up to play a game with full knowledge that it was run by people who could do whatever they wanted, whenever they wanted. I mean I do feel bad for those getting screwed, but not enough to start a revolution about it.

Just remember we signed up for a game I guess is what I’m saying. We agreed to a ToS that said LL was the supreme ruler and we were just pawns in their game. No use crying over spilled milk!

KTHXBAI!

First LL blog post: OpenSpace Pricing and Policy Changes

Second LL blog post: A Letter to Second Life Residents

LIKE ZOMG! I’M BACK! NO WAI!? WAI!I know I know I’ve been missing. We all need our breaks. Mine just took a little longer than most peoples. Suck it up

So where the hell have I been you ask? That’s a pretty damn good question. I may have an answer- one you may not like but it’s better than no answer

Real Life

I have been doing [a little] RL. I know- that thing that is beyond your puter. It’s a pretty weird place but was trying to get used to it. Matt and I are still together and I actually took ANOTHER trip out to Wisconsin to see him in August. Actually- I DROVE to see him. 1100 miles away too. Pretty impressive huh? I didn’t think I could do it but I did! Stayed overnight in Ohio too with a friend. (OH p.s. for those of you who don’t know I’m a total masshole.) I stayed for about a week and a half and it was total heaven. Met his two chicklets (who are 5 and 3) and they are wonderful as well

School has also started back up! I am a junior in college now :O how did the time go so fast??? Anyways- classes are awesome, but as most people know my roommates are assholes. There could be an entire post on why I hate them but it comes down to one simple thing: They are LOUD. Loud as hell to be exact. Like, keep me up at night loud which is insane. Enough about them though I has more to write.

Jobs- there aren’t any. I need a new puter and to start paying for stuff on my own BADLY- but no jobs. It sucks. Thank fking god Obama won. Nuff said.

Pain (physical- not emo) sucks. Hands getting worse. Still want doctors to give me pain pills and nada so far. Basically same as always.

Things with home are okay (mostly because I’m at school) but mom is realizing there are no jobs and it isn’t my fault. FINALLY god dammit.

Mmmkay. I think that’s all for real life that I can think of… NEXT!

World of Warcraft

Or should I say warcrack? You guess. Yes, that is where I have been hiding away from SL. Expansion comes out next week (WOO!) and I have managed to level TWO 70s in the few months I’ve been playing. I rock I know. Matt also has two 70s now too We are pretty much badass.

For you WoW geeks- I have a 70 blood elf beast mastery hunter and a 70 tauren resto druid. (for those of you who aren’t geeks you’re prolly sittin there like wut o.o?- dun worry I will try and not blab too much).

As you can see I have a few other toons made, some not even played. My 3rd and 4th fav are my shadow priest and protection warrior. They both rock pretty hardcore.

So why’d I go to WoW? Stressed out, away from drama, boyfriend plays it. Killing shit is a really freaking nice stress reliever. Try it sometime! Though, don’t try it on real people please, and if you do do NOT blame me for telling you xD

ANYWAYS kinda getting bored of it hence my return to SL.  Never thought you’d see the day huh? I think I just overkilled it a tad and miss some of my friends, and I think all the drama that made me leave has blown over- hence the return.

SL

So, return to SL… is this fer real? Yes it is. It seems on all my rezz day anniversaries I need a break from SL. Last years wasn’t nearly as long, but there was more drama this year and boyfriend has lasted longer. Be happy I’m back (or not if you hate me- meh dun care anymore)

Any catches to me coming back? Of course. Don’t expect me to get TOO involved in drama etc (we all know that won’t happen but I can hope). I’m going to try not to get uberously involved in crap (huge projects etc) Oh, and, not dating men either (emphasis on men). Have one in RL don’t need another in SL.

Annie (my mini me) will also be on lots too. If you must know her full name IM me. If not you can figure it out.

I will be trying to blog again (and don’t worry there is a rant already in my head about SL at the moment- so stay tuned for that) and you’ll see me in world. At nights I’ll mostly be in WoW when Matt is on, SL is basically going to rotate around his schedule. He is my #1 ya know

I AM still doing photoshop even though I don’t have the store anymore- Just IM me in world or drop me a notecard and we can set stuffage up

I do also still build so if you need anything made or want a quick how to don’t be afraid to ask

Ok, I think this post is freaking long enough. I promised JoJoBees a post before he woke up so here it is. Night all!

[Edit: I know when you click the pictures the box isn't coming up to view the regular size. No idea what is wrong but will try and fix it. All of the pictures here are on my flickr.]