So… been a blog challenge going around started by the girls at Shopping Cart Disco and since I’m bored alone at my boofs house I decided to give it a go Stuff is still sorta packed from airplane travel… so here we go!

Purse made by mah momma!

My keys!

•  car key
• house key
• dorm key
• mailbox key
• 2GB USB drive
• LED light (great for in the dark!)
• drivers liscence
• school ID
• bank card
• health insurance card
• basically my mini purse!

Brush from CVS or walgreens or somewhere like that

Ipod + headphones

Little jeweled mirror

Stride gum

Inhaler that I rarely use

Wallet with very little moniez and other random stuff

Boarding pass

Receipts

L’OREAL true match powder

In plastic baggy:

• Mary Kay Ultimate Mascara
• Mary Kay eyeliner in purple
• Outlast Smoothwear in brown
• Mary Kay lip gloss
• Listerine PocketMist
• Bath and Body Works lotion in sweet pea
• TWO Burt’s Bees Beeswax Lip Balms

Camera was in there too but needed it to uh take the piccy!

Normally my phone would be in there too but it was across the room!

Not to IM me about my post about HKE? Well those who did I ignored you. I said in my last post I don’t give a shit what you have to say- it’s staying up- you can IM me but keep doing it and it will be the mute button.

KTHXBAI!

*poofs laughing hysterically*

I just realized that my daughter Danni tagged me to do the evil book meme 5 days ago (I know.. bad mom… not keeping up with her own daughters blog) so here we go!

1. Pick up the nearest book (of at least 123 pages).
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the next three sentences.
5. Tag five people.

“A female from a pure line with brown eyes and short wings is crossed with a male from a normal pure line. The F1 consists of normal females and short-winged males. An F2 is then produced by intercrossing the F1.”

Okay… so the nearest book to me was my genetics book (hey I’m a college kid )… and page 123 is a page of problems… those are technically the 6th-9th sentences though!

Anyways… taggage…. I declare that: Johan Yugen, Amira Beaumont, Lailanni Carver, Codebastard Redgrave, and Lauren Weyland shall do this meme as well!

I have been wanting to listen to this song all day.. but kept myself from doing it.. listening to it now.. probably not the best idea but tough shit. I listened to this song on repeat when I thought mom passed last October, probably will listen to it on repeat for the next few days. It reminds me of her so much it’s not even funny. I know she’s not dead, but she is dieing. She still is very very sick, and maybe that 2 months they gave her before the operation is extended to say 4 months? Then you take into account if radiation treatment helps… and factor in the fact she’s really stressed that she can’t remember anything.. I don’t know. She’s dieing faster than the rest of us. I know that. I’m trying to come to terms with it. This helps me for some reason. I will be with her till the end.. and will still tell everyone about her. She really is my hero.

This song has SO much meaning, SO much love, SO much emotion in it it’s hard not to think of someone you lost when you hear it, or even someone you are scared of losing. It really puts things in perspective for me. It’s just plain beautiful.

Here are the lyrics. And can hear it on YouTube here. Death Cab for Cutie “What Sarah Said”

And it came to me then that every plan
Is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU
That reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself
That I’ve already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD
Took you a little farther away from me
Away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds
And I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose
Than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground
As the TV entertained itself

‘Cause there’s no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes ‘round and everyone lift their heads
But I’m thinking of what Sarah said
That love is watching someone die

So who’s gonna watch you die? So who’s gonna watch you die

Mom,

I don’t even know how to begin this, sitting here crying because I know this very well could be the last time to get out everything and I just don’t want to because I’m not ready, but tough shit I’m trying to do it anywas.

First of all I love you so much it’s rediculous. You mean more to me than anyone else I know, you feel more to me like a mom than my own real one. You’ve always been there for me when I’ve been at my worst times, and have supported me through everything. You’ve been my rock. My gaurdian angel. The one I can run to with anything and just attach to your leg and know it’ll be okay. You’ve helped me though all of my problems so far in real life, and all of those stupid ass relationships and all the drama in SL and stuck with me through all of it when most wouldn’t. You’ve been my biggest comfort, my biggest blanket, my shelter. I can talk to you like an adult and then go on Annie and act like a 5 year old and get just as much love and attention.

I lost you once. It sucked. It was hell. I thought a piece of me died. After you got back we’ve only got closer and our bond is stronger so I know if anything happens it’s just going to suck that much more. I know we’ve pushed our luck keeping you around, and I’ve always known that this may very well happen due to everything, but it doesn’t mean that it’s any easier and doesn’t mean I’m any more ready for it. I need you so much and I feel so selfish saying that you’re not going anywhere even though it really isn’t my choice, but I can’t help it it’s true. Even though sometimes we don’t talk to each other for a few days, we are always there for each other, no matter how long it’s been we can still go back and be fine and laugh and cry together. I don’t know what I’ll do when this is gone.

I also want to say sorry for any drama or any hurt I’ve caused you, whether it be directly or indirectly. I’m human, you’re human. I’m sorry for threatening to ever leave- you know I really couldn’t, I  love you too much and you mean too much to me. At times there was so much drama after you came back and I coudln’t handle it because I had my own on top of it, but know that I loved you so much through all of it and that could never ever change.

There are some people that you meet that just impact your life in the most profound ways. You were one of those people to me. Despite everything that was going on with your health you still came online and was a strong confident woman, like nothing could ever bring you down. This has inspired me so much through everything that’s going on with me. It helps me pull through and see the light at the end of the tunnel. You are probably the most amazing person I have ever met and I will never be able to thank anyone enough for sending you to me. I met you because I just wanted someone to look after my 5 year old avie and it turned into someone that has looked over me through everything.

You really do mean the world to me and I am just so thankful for the times we have had. I wish I could have spent even more time with you, talked to you more, played games with you, stuck at your hip as Annie, but that doesn’t matter anymore- I just need to be thankful for the times I have had with you.

I’m sorry for not being able to talk to you since last night. I’ve just been devastated and crying and not even being able to talk to anyone. I wish I could have just stuck by your hip the whole time but I was in denial.

I hope the angels watch over you tomorrow and I really hope you get this. I love you so much mom and I always will. You will always have a special place in my heart that nobody will every be able to take. I’ll be praying that you will be online in the next few days- but if you aren’t, know that I will always keep you with me, that I will always remember you, that I will always tell any more children that I do adopt that they had this amazing nana that I wish they could have met.

I love you mom so much. May the angels and God watch over you now.

Love Always and Forever,
Your Daughter,
Alexa

Sorry emo post.

I’m uber overwhelmed right now, as could probably be seen in last post. Feel like crap today, sooo tired, although doesn’t help I was up till 2:30am last night (but hey I was with Codie so it’s all good xD). Gym didn’t help any either but meh.

I think I may take a mini SL/puter break this weekend while I’m at home that may very well stretch into next week. I’ll be on for Vie’s shows (hopefully, if RL doesn’t get in the way) and then Lai’s party on Saturday… but other than that I probably won’t be around.

No, I’m not leaving for good. I just need a mini break to clear my head. Between stuff with mom, Jo, and Lai pushing her move up (plus RL) my head just hurts.

Okay, need to go start RL homework so I’m not up till all hours of the night again. I need to get laundry done tonight too. Not amused that it’s supposed to snow tomorrow… drive home is going to SUCK!

Bye for now!

YAY!

Yet another new blog! This one is actually hosted by my SL daughter Danni TY Princess!

Don’t like my blog switching?

Well… BITE ME!